a nice song

Here’s a song I’d like to share with everyone. You can listen to it by clicking on the title of the song. I really like it. It’s a pretty song. Hihi.

Because Of You
Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because you know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

a long entry caused by the knowledge of a long weekend ahead

I wrote this yesterday:

I’m super happy. a 3-day weekend. Woohoo! Thanks to the SONA and those people who plan to rally(though I really don’t like these people), we don’t have classes. See how much interruption they’re doing. Whatever! I have no plans of writing anything about my views on Philippine politics because that probably will be a long and unappealing blob of words. I guess that’s what Eng Journ does to a person. It makes you think about what’s happening around you because a journalist can’t can’t care but you can’t be biased anyway. So enough of that. Going back to what I’m really saying. There’s a three-day weekend and there’s really not much to do. I already submitted my 2 articles a while ago. The proogies training for tomorrow is cancelled. Tomorrow, there’s a chapter meeting, CTK youth mass and my dad has 2 talks. That’s probably all. The only things I have to do for Tuesday are study for the Chem long test and buy a pig’s heart for our dissection. Those 2 aren’t much so I’m really looking forward to rest, rest and more rest. And one more thing, I’m finally going to touch my copy of Bamboo in the Wind.

Now, the sad parts. Guess what. I’m going to write a bunch of stuff no one would probably understand but who cares. I’ve been planning to write these stuff for quite some time but I’m not able to because there’s never enough time.

(1) I think I’m too insecure. I always think people are out to get me. I’m never confident enough about myself. I always think that what I’m doing is pathetic. I think people don’t like me. What’s up with that? Am I not supposed to be happy with what God has given me? I mean it’s not that I don’t notice the blessings because I do. I’m thankful that I’m living a better life than most Filipinos. I’m studying in a good school without having to pay. I get paid to study. I have a relationship with God. I have friends. I’m in YFC which is an ultimately nice thing. I have parents who are very kind and understanding. See?! I could go on forever but I never seem to be happy. I know all that but I still feel sad sometimes and I know that’s wrong. So don’t you think I have a big problem. 1. I’m insecure. 2. I’m insecure about being insecure. How terrible is that?!

(2)La Salle has been loosing but I’m not really that depressed about it right now. 2 games pa lang naman yung talo e. It’s not like those will cost them the championship. Hindi pa naman so k lng.

(3) I’m the laziest procrastinator in all of mankind. I procrastinate badly and I’m still lazy while doing it. That’s probably the reason why I’m stressed all the time. I seriously need to develop good study habits before it’s too late.

Ok?! That’s enough complaining for me. A lightning bolt my suddenly strike me. Baka pagalitan na ko ni God. Sabihin niya I need a reality check. That’s all for now.

ano ba naman to

eto lang gusto kong sabihin. 12:50 na ng umaga at ito pa ang mga kailangan ko gawin at tapusin: 2 chem lab reps, str abstract thing, filipino descriptive essay, read newspaper for eng journ current events quiz, answer soc sci gk's assigned to me and fix the stuff i have to bring for swimming & soc sci presentation tom.

thus, i'm tired and this is becoming a daily routine so i seriously have to do something about this. God bless us all!!!

busy weekend

Sunday

My cousins, uncles and aunts went to the house. We went swimming.

Tapos of course the highlight of the day: ADMU-DLSU game. Sobrang hindi ko pinanood. Mga a total of 2 ¼ quarters lng napanood ko. I can’t believe myself. E pano naman kasi, sobrang tambak ng Ateneo. Sorry! Pero siyempre mas exciting kung close fight diba?! Ang galling pa rin ng La Salle. They could still score even without Cardona. They still have their trademark defense. I really admire Coach Franz Pumaren. He picked up his 100th win that day in only 7 seasons and 1 game. I mean that’s an average of 14 wins per season. That’s big considering a team gets a maximum of 20 games per season. That would be extreme conditions like you were tied with a team after eliminations, you defeat a twice to beat team in the semis, you go through 3 finals games. So sobrang galling talaga ni Coach Franz! What a way to gain his 100th win. what a coach to win his 100th game against and what team to win his 100th game against.

ANIMO LA SALLE!!! Prove everyone wrong and win another UAAP men’s seniors bball title.

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Saturday

BBSC Team Building. This is one event I didn’t mind missing the opening of the 68th season of the UAAP for. We had activities in separate groups and some as a whole. My groupmates were Ed, Ivy, Karizz and Redg. I love my group! Go group 2!!! It was a group wherein everybody played a part. Walang pabigat or paspecial or tamad sa group namin. Lahat kami game. I love my group mates talaga!!!

I thought we were going to get really dirty. As in magiging brown na yung buong shirt ko pero buti naman hindi. Natalsikan lang ng konting mud yung pants and of course nadumihan yung shoes pero that was it. Oh ya! By Sunday Morning, yung part ng body from my waist down sobrang sakit. Ngayon, masakit pa rin lower extremities ko. My gosh!

I don’t want to give the details coz others might experience it and not enjoy it as much because they wouldn’t be surprised. Say ko lang: BUHAY AKO!!!! Woohoo!!! Grabe! I’m not too heavy after all. Mwahaha!

I definitely learned a lot from the entire afternoon. We had fun and at the same time were able to pick up things that are crucial for us to become better people and people who can work with and for others. I can’t wait for the next BBSC activities.

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Friday

For only the second time in my life, I experienced a class gimik. I know second time. Ang labo noh?! E, wala naman kasing nagpaplano sa iba kong classes before e. But im not complaining. Madalas pa naman ako walang pera. We went to Promenade(greenhills) with Nico, Rob, Jeriq, Paul, Jao, Kimer, Lara, Joanne, Keisee, Kat., nico’s brother & Ma’am Jams. After buying our tickets, we(the girls) ate at Teriyaki Boy while the guys were left in the arcade. Sobrang minadali naming yung pagkain kasi magstastart na yung movie at tinatawagan na ni Nico si Kimer so halos linunok na lang ni Lara yung food niya kasi last dumating yung order niya. Tapos tumakbo kami papuntang theater. Kakakain lang naming nun. We watched Fantastic 4. It didn’t exactly have lots of content but it was ok and the fact that I was with classmates made it better. Tas the fun part(for me at least) was the picture taking. Para kaming mga baliw. They were imitating the poses of the characters in the movie posters. Sabi nga ni Ma’am Jams: Para kayong hindi taga-Maynila. Hehe. Ayun. I had to go home early because we were having a cluster meeting at SSJ. So yun. Umalis na ko. Sayang! Hindi ako nakastay for dinner. Maybe next time. I’m sure maraming next time kasi mahilig yata lumabas classmates ko. Hihi.

the keys to my heart daw

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was insecure and in constant need of reassurance.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something that will confine you. You are afraid of marriage.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

hindi totoo na i'm afraid of marriage! promise!